Sunday, June 1, 2008
"light blub" moment
Let me begin by saying that I have a big heart... I will accept anybody for who they are and love them for their unique individuality. Unfortunately, this has gotten me into trouble many times because I get myself involved in relationships with family and friends and end up investing more and more and eventually I get taken advantage of. I really can't help it though, it's just part of my personality. When I gain a close friendship with someone whether they are part of my family or not, I tend to dive in head first and put my everything into it, I would do anything for my family and friends. Not because I'm desperate, but because I have so much love in my heart to give to people that I just cant contain myself. But so many times people take advantage of that love that I give them and as soon as they realize that I need to be loved in return they just up and walk right out of my life, generally in a very hurtful manner. I have had a very hard time adjusting to all the pain and abandonment and find myself wondering what I did wrong. I had a “light bulb” moment this morning, it has nothing to do with me but with the others inability to accept and return the love and friendship that I extend….I feel much better.